KABOOM

ah, i dunno why i said that.

probably got too much pent up energy.

ohhgawd.

my end of years SUCK!

that stupid averaging thing pulled me down

i dont even know what the heck its for gawdammit.

its just there and its screwing up just about every one of my subject marks.

AND sumyue got THREE As AND SHE HATES HER RESULTS.

i think im gonna just go throw myself off some bridge right now.

my aggregate is what. a TWENTY ONE.

hello. what kind of aggregate is that??

im gonna have to self teach in jc man.

ugh. and great

i just about forgot all my new blog addresses, username and password.

so,

it means im back to square one.

which is just absolutely awesome.

lucky thing i still rmb this add and whatever else i need to get in somewhere

TO BLOG.

and release some pent up energy.

oh gawd. i sound like some nerd.

OOOOOs are coming!

oh, no, its already here.

i mean the abnormal chinese thing we have to sit for in six days time.

and everyone around me just dont seem to get sick of reminding me about it.

and how dead im going to be if i screw it up.

which is what is most likely going to happen.

I HATE CHINESE.

have i ever mentioned that?

i mean,

i dont hate the reading part.

i can read forever. to myself.

but not the doing part where u sit for what, two hours, doing some weird crap that doesnt even help me improve my life.

its not like my ambition is to be some comprehension writer or something.

but i guess people do do such stuff.

thats why there's like a million comprehension assesments out there. or whatever its called.

anyway.

my bro's watching tv now, and i SWEAR he's deaf.

i bet the whole estate can hear that dragon show he's watching.

i mean, at least choose something decent to watch right, if the whole estate is gonna be hearing it too.

gawd. headache.

and i cant even yell at him to turn it down because i dont think he would hear it.

and i dont feel like walking.

dang! im turning into a pig these days.

AND MY GRANDMA JUST BOUGHT FIVEHUNDREDANDFORTYDOLLARS WORTH OF. I DONT EVEN KNOW WHAT ITS CALLED.

AND she's giving it to some lawyer who sold her a crap house she isnt even allowed to stay in untill four and three quarters month later.

great.

everyone around me is just going crazy.

i mean, we'r talking about my GRANDMA here.

my GRANDMA who feels that 5ocents for a pack of taogei is expensive.

and who'd rather spent two hours walking home with a million kg of grocceries than spent $5.3o on taxi.

so out of nowwhere she's suddenly buying a FIVEHUNDREDANDFORTYDOLLARS worth of weird stuff that rich people with too much money to spend, for some LAWYER.

and she doesnt even like lawyers.

i mean, okay. she's grateful. i get it.

but this? this is insane.

ah whatever.

its her money. maybe she's right, she does have a right to spend it.

and i dont wanna be quarreling with her forever over this. since she's obviously not done buying. 

welllll.

i'll just be contented with single handedly screwing up my own life.

which is probably gonna end tonight when my dad sees my results. and my report book.

the one thing he's been waiting forever for. and which he never seems to get.

hopefully he'd be so happy to finally see it he wont pay attention to what's inside.

hopefully.

anyway.

whoa thats a longg post! hah.

im gonna go bathe.

wow.that was pretty easy.

hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm. its been ages since ive blogged!

ohh my

&i didn even notice.  huh

and.

SINCE.i cldn sign in into my BLOGGER account after one month and 18 &a half days,

ive decided to give up trying.

ahh. yada its weird starting to blog again

oh no thats not the right face.

ah well. they dont have a right face

yad dah. i have a feeling my battery's running out

and the computer is burning a hole in my skirt.

uhoh. not good

ohkay anyw;

ah. i finally get what they mean by only treasuring sth whn its not thr for u anymore.

or is not yours anymore

cant be yours anymore.

whatever.

but its not right.

NOT.

i can never feel this way.

i cant imagine .

ARGGGHG.

what IS wrong with me!

i wish i never went that day.

thn now, i can continue to live in blissful ignorance.

i wouldnt feel this way now.

and i dont knw .

i never felt this way before.

maybe its for real this time? but no.

i dont wanna think abt it.

just shut up okay. im not thinking.

one day maybe i will know.

maybe its mutual  .  who cares.